Oops!

Long time, no post! When I started this blog it was supposed to be a weekly thing for me. Life gets in the way. My father-in-law passed away in August 2019 just three weeks after I had my gastric sleeve surgery. It was a really tough time, both emotionally and eating-wise. Somehow the blog slipped my mind and I haven't done any updating in all that time.

Today as I'm writing this post, I realized that it's my 10 month post-op surgi-versary. It's hard to believe I've come this far, when it took so long to prepare and go through all the steps to be approved. Time really goes fast! In those 10 months, I've lost 75 pounds and I'm still working on losing. Has it been easy? Hell no! I "came out" on Facebook back in February and made a post about my weight loss surgery, which was met with private messages from a few people people who said things like, "I'm not sure why you're bragging, you took the easy way out!" and "I bet it was so easy for you having that done." In reality, no, it wasn't easy and it still isn't.

I don't think anyone realizes that amount of psychological pressure that is placed on eating when you rely on food for emotional comfort, or even if you are as far as having a food addiction. I've never been officially diagnosed, but I'd be willing to bet that I have food addiction, and I definitely still have trouble not relying on food for comfort. Especially now, in this COVID-19 pandemic which is making us all stay at home, boredom is KILLING ME! All I want to do is cook and eat and that is a huge no-no with the sleeve. Cooking is fine but it has to fit the guidelines.

It's May 15th and I stopped losing around February 18th. So I hit a three month stall - yes, three months! It was agonizing and I was extremely emotional but you know what? It was all my fault. I spent the past almost three months cooking and baking all kinds of comfort food. What I've found (personally, for me) is that carbs are the downfall of my weight loss. So while I was still eating under 1200 calories daily, I wasn't losing because I was eating a ton of carbs. Two weeks ago I started watching my carbs like a hawk, stayed under 40 carbs per day, and I lost 8 pounds! I knew it was the answer, but I just kept lying to myself about what I needed to do. I have the tool (the sleeve), but I wasn't using it properly.

When did you have your first stall? How long did it last?